Still Exhausted...

Well, I'm in Lubbock this weekend with Bethany at a Peddler Show, I would be thrilled to be here and help her...except I feel like my head is about to explode. I think I might have a sinus infection, but I'm not positive because I don't know if I have ever had one, and I don't know what one feels like, all I know is that my whole head hurts...bad. The worst part is that I feel like I did it to myself. If you read my previous post(notice I just said "read" not "understood") then you should remember I have been so tired and have not been getting good rest, and was working a lot, and wasn't eating very well. WELL...here I am now, sick! AWESOME. It started out as a bad cough, and then just congestion, and now my entire head is hurting. It stinks that it's this weekend, because I want to be able to help Bethany as much as I can, but I also know that I need to take care of myself and get as much rest as I can. I talked to Emily today...I am so excited that the Sims family will be here too...but she is sick too...it sounds like we have the same thing. Not good. I hope that we can both get better and feel good so that we can actually enjoy ourselves.

I really feel like I need to start being smart with my time and taking care of myself better. It has been really hard lately because we have people at our apartment all the time...which I LOVE...I REALLY do! For you reading this, who always ask me...you know who you are:) But as much as I love it, I kind of feel like I'm sick now, let me check....yeah, I am. And I know that my work schedule was a little crazy there, so that has some to do with it, but at the same time, when I have to be up at 8, it's not good for me to be up til 2! I just need to start disciplining myself! It has been so fun to have people over, and cook and bake, and have stuff to look forward to, and plan ahead...but it's not going to be fun if I can't look forward to it because I am sick! So, I am going to start making a point of taking good care of myself...(are you proud of me momma?)

Well, I will let you know how this weekend goes, and if we get to feeling better, please pray for us, because I know this is the worst I have felt, not like ever in my life, just in the past 3 days, since it all started, anywho...I am hoping it can't get worse than this, and I know that Emily felt real bad too. I am off to make my momma proud and get GOOD REST!

Exhaustion

I have never in my life been more exhausted than I am right now. In the past 3 days, I think I have gotten approximately 10ish hours of sleep. I was up for about 20 hours on Sunday, went to sleep for about 5 hours and am up again. What day is it? I was at work Sunday morning at 6am! If this blog isn't making sense than it's because I have never been more exhausted in my life. I am going to try and make a goal to go to bed tonight at a decent hour, and get good sleep! I don't have to work tomorrow, thank you Lord! I WILL be sleeping in! I can get everything I need to get done, and catch up on stuff. This weekend I am going to Lubbock for Bethany's second Peddler Show, I am excited, AND Britt and Emily will be there, so I am excited to catch up with them! Back to my work stuff, I worked Sunday at 6am, for 8 hours, we were doing a new floor set. I didn't know how it was going to go, being there at 6am, for 8 hours and all, I must say, it was not bad...not bad AT ALL! I kept thinking, where is the time gone? And then, I had to work today, did NOT know how I was going to make it, but I did it, we still had stuff left over from yesterday's floor set(that was yesterday???) that we didn't get done, so I was able finish that! I was so happy because I didn't know how I was going to stand in the front of the store greeting customers all day, I was afraid I would've fallen asleep standing up. So what I am saying is, I enjoyed work the past 2 days, and if I could just do that kind of stuff there...the floor set stuff, I would have no problem, but there are days, I am so bored out of my mind, I want to quit! I have started to get to know the managers, and I feel like they are starting to get to know me, and my personality, and I don't know if I want to quit. I'm so confused. 

I apologize, because I don't really know what this post is about, except to say I am so tired. 

The Good times

Things are going good. The blog has a new look, it was about time. I would like to thank my friend Erica, I feel like I owe it to her for finding this background, so thank you Erica. Without you I have nothing. HA. :)  Last night, Erica and I went for a walk on the Trinity Trails, its right by our apartment, its a trail that goes around the city, I mean it's 30 miles...and it goes by our apartment!!! We are pretty stoked...there is a little river right by it. It is really nice. So we are really happy to have a place that we can go and walk and clear our mind and exercise. I actually went again this morning...it was a little warmer, I think I almost got heat stroke...so I'll have to start discipling(is that actually a word???) myself to get up earlier in the morning when it isn't as hot. And I am actually happy about it, because I want to walk the trails! 

I feel like I am finally starting to find myself here. We have met some great new people, and I just feel like I am starting to feel more comfortable here. I'm still not quite sure about my job, I still don't love it. I think I am going to have to find another one. Although the discount is AWESOME...it is keeping me from actually making any money, which some might say is a problem...because it is a job. 

And now, I would like to leave you with some of the good times....

>going into Erica's room at night, sitting on her bench, while she lays in her bed and talking about our days...if I happen to have a thing of ice cream...so be it. 

>SHOWS! thank goodness its fall, although I would never know it, because it's still 90 degress in Fort Worth, I know it is fall because my shows are back! Greys Anatomy, the Office, Private Practice starts Wednesday....they make me happy

>hanging out with friends, eating cookies, talking...singing maybe? but definitely the cookies. We love our cookies. 

> talking to my family on the phone, always helps when we're so far away

Alright that is all for now, and I know this blog is title The Good Times, but let me just leave you with this, we have ants. They are all over our apartment. They started in the kitchen, now they're in my bathroom. I am so emotional about it, I thought I was going to start crying yesterday, when I saw them in my bathroom. It is ridiculous! What is the deal? Where are they coming from? I just had to get that out, I feel like they are getting the best of me. Damn ants! Sorry, but I hate them! 

glued to the weather channel...

So, they say there is a hurricane coming. I know this because I have been watching the weather channel and the news ALL day, and well, and I mean who doesn't know it at this point? HA. I cannot turn the news off, Erica just said that she couldn't watch it anymore, it's been on too long. We don't know how bad it will be here in Fort Worth, they keep changing the forecast it seems. We're going to get rain and wind, and I think that is about it...how much is still the question. They say we'll get it all day tomorrow(Saturday), I will be working, so maybe it will make for a slow day at the Limited...

Speaking of the Limited. I believe my last post was my dreadful first day. Well, since the first day, it's been about a week and a half, and I'm really not enjoying the Limited as much as I thought I would. It's actually really boring and there have been a few days that I totally hated it, and a few days that I only kind of hated it. Well, maybe its not quite that bad, but maybe it is. I have worked retail before, and it was not this bad, I don't know what it is, I love their clothes, so I feel like to be there and work there, but its just not that great.

With that being said, I'm going to be gone most weekends with Bethany to peddler shows, I was supposed to go this weekend, but got scheduled to work, but then it got canceled because it was in College Station and Ike decided to move on in...but, I am really excited to help Bethany with her photography!!! 

So, everything has been pretty good lately, last weekend we went to the Augustana/Maroon 5/Counting Crows concert in Dallas, that's where we are in the picture...it was so much fun, Maroon 5 were amazing! 

We(me and Erica) still can't believe we live here sometimes, like today for instance, we were driving and and we were like, we live here? We say that a lot. I will say, I'm still finding my way around, I was half way to Abilene today, on I-20 West, when I realized I was supposed to be going East. Ok, I exaggerated on the half way, it was about 5 miles, but still, and I blame Erica, she thought I just knew, to go I-20 East, haha! 

Anyways, can I just say that I don't understand why there are reporters reporting in the middle of the hurricane...! I mean, they are literally tied down to something sturdy, and one of them just fell over from a gust of wind, he was trying his hardest to keep his balance, but  the wind is too strong, shouldn't they take that as a sign, to go INSIDE? I mean, it makes for good television, I guess, I'm watching, but I really just want them to be safe right now! Well, I think that is enough of this random post, it's time for bed, I'll post tomorrow...post Ike! Hopefully I'm dry, and my umbrella stays in tact:) 

@ concert...showing off our lip gloss! 

first day of work...

...in a word, tragic! Well, maybe not quite that dramatic, I didn't get fired or anything, but it was an eventful first day at The Limited. Lets just begin with yesterday, when I was talking to my mom on the phone, and she said that she would be looking forward to hearing from me after my first day. My first day, was an 8 hour shift,  I haven't worked 8 hours...on my feet...in awhile. So she was anxious, she was telling me to be prepared, and have a snack, and have medicine if I needed it. I did all that, I think she told me to wear comfortable shoes, ya know, because I would be on my feet for 8 hours...if she did, I must have blocked her out, because I bought these really cute black pumps for work. I mean they don't have that huge of a heal, maybe 2 1/2, 3 in tops...I was really excited because they completed my look. I have to look nice, I work at The Limited. 

Yeah, I don't really wear high heels...really, ever. But I really convinced myself, that I could handle 8 hours in them, on my feet...I mean I really convinced myself. I also bought a pair of flats, but I just thought they weren't cute enough for my outfit. So, the heels it would be. I went to work at 9, and one girl asked if I brought a change of shoes, because I was going to be here all day...pshh, I could handle it, they were pretty comfortable...until about the 2nd hour. I kind of lost all feeling in my feet. Not only that, but I was nauseous, and started feeling lightheaded. I don't know if that happened because there was no blood flow to my feet...does that happen? I don't really know? But it was bad, I had to sit down in the back a few times. I'm pretty sure I was as white as a ghost. My manager, whom I met like 2 days ago, came up to me and was like..."Whoa, are you ok??? You do not look good!" So that's good. When I say it was bad...it was bad. For a little while, I thought I forgot how to walk. I could not put one foot in front of the other. I was on the verge of asking someone for some Dr. Scholl's, when I was told I could take my hour break! I really thought I might fall over at this point, I didn't know if I could walk anymore. SO, during my break I went to my apartment, and changed into my flats...even though they weren't as cute with the outfit...I really didn't care. All I cared about was walking like a 22 year old...not a 2 year old. But seriously, after I changed my shoes, I was no longer nauseous, or lightheaded...so I guess it was the shoes? I think I just had it in my head that I was Carrie Bradshaw...when in reality, I mean...I'm NOT Carrie Bradshaw, and I will never be Carrie Bradshaw. So that was my first day, the 2nd half...better than the first half. I think it will be good, I just have to remember to be myself, in my good 'ole mary janes! 

(Side note: I totally could've handled 8 hours SITTING in the heels!)

P.S. You should try Blue Bell ice cream- Snickerdoodle, its new, its unbelievable, and knowing that it was in my freezer when I got home, made the whole day OK! It turned my life upside down...maybe that's a little dramatic...again...but it is REALLY good! 

I am going to go to bed now, because I have another 8 hour day ahead of me tomorrow, don't worry, I'll be wearing flats. 

life is good...

Erica, Anna, Bethany and I at SCAT Jazz Club

me and Erica at Dave Barnes

all of us at Dave Barnes

So, I got a job! Finally, Praise the Lord. I will be working at The Limited. It isn't what I set out to do, retail that is...but my plans changed when my friend Bethany asked me to help her with the Peddler Show. I am going to be traveling with her some weekends, and it would just be hard to work a full time Monday-Friday job, if I had to leave Thursday's for the Peddler Show...so, if the Peddler Show, works out, which I hope it does because it sounds like so much fun! Then I will work at The Limited, and if it doesn't work out, then I will probably have to get a full time job, at an office, which was what my original plan was. I am excited to work at The Limited, I love their clothes...discount:) So that is good, because I really needed to find a job. 

I must say, I absolutely love Ft. Worth. There is so much to do here, and we haven't even seen half of it. It is so exciting to live in a city where there is fun stuff to do! And to have people you love to go out with and do all of it with! In the last week, we all...being me, Erica, Bethany, and Anna...went downtown to Ft. Worth, to a jazz club, and hung out in a penthouse in downtown Ft. Worth. We went downtown to Dallas to see Dave Barnes in concert. He was amazing. We are planning to see Augustana and Maroon 5 in September. We just have so much to look forward to. 

...I know for me, Bethany and Anna in particular, after living in Canyon last year, we are so happy here, to actually have options and not have to stay in all the time. It's so different...it's wonderful! 

I just feel like I am in just a good place in my life right now, I am really happy. I have no idea what I am doing really to be quite honest. I am not going to school, I am working retail, and I am more than OK with all of it. I am not stressed with where I am supposed to be, or questioning if I am doing the right thing with my life...which I do a lot. I am happy with where I am right now. And I am looking forward to the future and what is next. 

back in Texas...

Well, I am officially a Texan again. Erica and I moved into our apartment today! After what seemed like the longest car ride of my life on Thursday. We left Lexington, Thursday morning around 7:30 eastern time, and didn't get to Dallas until about 10:45 central time! We were in 3 cars altogether, so that made it hard with stops, and one of the cars was a moving truck. I didn't drive at all. Erica and I rode together in her car, and she has a standard, and I can't drive that, so she said she would drive the entire way. I could never do that. But, not driving made the trip longer I think. Anyways, after a VERY long trip, we are finally here. Movers came and unloaded our truck Friday morning(today) and we started unpacking. Still quite a bit to do. 

Our apartment is so cute. In the main room, we had the choice to have an accent wall, so we decided to be bold and paint it red, it looks so good! I can't wait to get all the accessories and everything in there, its going to look so good! I got new bedding, that I absolutely LOVE, its red...and tonight I went to target with my parents and found the perfect lamp to go in my room with a red lampshade...it made me so happy. It's the little things in life...

I'll be putting pictures up soon, but I don't have that many right now. I'll wait until the apartment is all set up!  

Well, that is all for now, I'm so exhausted from moving all day, I'm going to go crash.